today's e math mock exam were interesting.
i am so glad that i know how to do the questions, but big tummy lim says that it is common that everyone can do, it is the careless mistake that
differentiate the grades. some questions were taught by jess. today, i successfully applied, but dunno right or wrong.
ha!


however, i didn't get to finish the whole paper. I know it clearly that i am slow, ppl take 1h45 mins to finish, i need 3h becos i have forgotten all the fomulas or in fact dunno them at all.
although there is not much time left from the O,
but still learn them one by one without wasting much time.
i am so grateful to have jess such a fren to teach me and lend her completed paper to me, helping me to rewind. sometime she will teach me till vomit blood, but thanks to her.
i have learn many e- maths things from her.


Anyway the very main thing is.... the class was getting too noisy. it was at first the other classes students outside the classroom shouting aloud.
but soon it was not the outside. but turned the inside.
they were not being considerate by doing that. although most of our classmates are clever ppl and fast worker who may have long-finished the paper, but what about those who are slower? we can't assumed that everyone had alr finished and was just waiting for time to be up and therefore make noises for fun and entertainment.
other ppl although minority will get somehow distracted.
So what if it is a mock exam? this incident made me feel that even us, SEC5, 17 year old student require a teacher to discipline us.



I have also understand why big tummy lim always being "Unreasonable" ( but in fact he is not that bad) towards us. he have his unique way of treating his student. esp those who "WEIRD BLUE" (in hokkien) no matter how weird your blue is, it will never be weirder than his. although i am not that weird blue, i am always not comfortable talking to him because i realise that he dun really trust student and is too confident of his assumption. i might not be able to take it when someone talks to me as if i am a bad person who cannot be trusted at all. this is becoz i hate ppl who cannot be trusted. that's why i dun wan to communicate with him much to prevent such thing happen again. overall he is a good teacher:D i still like him as a teacher.



i am clear that i am A STUDENT in his class, and he is a LAW BY LAW teacher who cannot be offended but can take jokes. he is clear about all the rules and regulations in the sku and had fully learn all the smelly pattern of students. so better not try to be a "SMART" student who debate with him unless u are full of confident and clear of understand and purpose in school. maybe its because his previous classes are too mischievous causing him to lose faith in students.


i was once very disappointed by his action.
the action's message sent to me was " sorry, i can't believe you." when it was a time that i tell him something that is true, but often being used by other student as an excuse.
during that moment i feel that the world is forcing us to tell lies because many can't believe students can be honest. i hold on to my emotion, trying to cool myself down.
Out of no where, he ask me to go and talk to him.
before he say anything, i cried. he was very surprise and ask me why am i crying.
i was a little angry and disappointed towards him becoz i look high up on him. but now i understand. but cannot blame him. just like a child who does not have a good family, we can't blame the child for being ill-discipline.



from there onwards, he thought that i am a gu niang who is very afraid of his fierceness.
Please la!!!! fierce so what? if u are nothing to me, u fierce to me untill u burst i also no effect arh.....


In fact i am really afraid of his melodious voice that might one day break my ear drum.....

today i saw the 传说中的扁猫。
i feel so painful to imagine me as that cat.
after talking to jess and reb, to my surprise that they think that frenz cannot get romantic!!!
i love to be romantic, even when i am alone.
i dun like crowded. warm, humid, bright and noisy place.
that they i stayed over at grandma house. whole night didn't sleep well, feeling very bad because i can't finish my homework. so eat a cup of noodle early before the sunrise and went to the bus stop to wait for bus 163. i was alone, no one is around.
i feel tired but soon relax after seeing the curvy moon very bright star accompanying me. i really feel that they are comforting me.
i love them. they are so peaceful, lovely and sweet.
thanks God for creating them:D
sometime i really hope that somebody will be there for me ever ready.
i want to go a lot of places, do a lot a lot of things, but there are so many restriction.
i am too young to do certain things that i want to, i am not resourceful enough to get to the places i want.
i will easily get lost at the places that i am not sure.
i always tell ppl around me " wait till i am rich......." whenever i sees something i like.
but from the current situation, the moment is far from sight.
Why are we still so young.......... we need to study....... actually is quite funny that something you want is always beside u when its not yours.
unfortunately, this is common not only to me.

HEY frenz!

dun stupid stupid harm urself. u r just being selfish by doing that.

there are three person that i am worry an concern.

one of them is the one that dun allow others to care for, and refuse to listen.
thus causing ppl not to concern about her.
WORSE, dunno how to answer her questions.
we are trying to help, in fact teacher have been asking us to help,
but WHAT CAN WE DO?
is not that we frens dun concern about her, but the fact is that she dun allow herself to be concerned. I was once angry with her.
but now we are still fren. recently i can see that she is stress about her sku work, but me as well....not doing very well

another one is the one that is easily distracted, cannot concentrate, too hyper,
want talk to her also difficult. but fortunately, she is hard working and self conscious.
everytime try her best to understand what the teacher said.
sometime she will come to me and cry that she have not been fruitful and couldn't manage her time well. she can be very funny and stupid.
but sometime too emotional.

the last one is the one that i have not talked to her for quite some time,
she's okay still but she is drifting apart from the ppl around her.
going out with ppl who does not give a good impression.
thus many ppl misunderstood her.
i am very concern about her.
recently i overheard somethings that
related to her from my beloved frens.
but no matter what is it,
i will not say it out as it would affect their relationship.
i hope that they be together like they were
because they are my dear frens.
this person is one of my good fren,
my heart aches went she is suffering.

The best scenario in sku except good results is to have all my good frens together,
laughing very happily.